Lord, I'm Tired

Dear Heavenly Father,

I am overwhelmed. I owe so much to the IRS. Lead me out of this debt oh Lord. Help me to pay off these taxes oh God. Those numbers I owe are overwhelming. Lord help me not to stress over what I owe the IRS oh God. In Your Word, You promise to supply all my needs according to the riches of Your Glory. You see my need right now. Open miraculous doors of finances oh God. Settle my heart oh God and put my mind at ease if it starts to wonder and worry about how to pay the IRS. I hate hate being in debt oh Lord. I pray to be diligent and disciplined in how I spend money. Help me not to overspend oh God. Help me to budget oh Lord.

Dear Father, I don’t know how I’ll be able to get a home with this IRS debt oh God. I pray for a financial miracle dear ABBA. I’m drowning dearest Father. I absolutely hate it. Father God I pray that I can pay off all my debt from the proceeds of this book. I want to be debt free so bad. I repent for not managing my finances well in the past. Father You asked me to give this $16000 away and now I’m drowning. Help me not to keep thinking about it. Oh dear Father clear my debt once and for all. Father I surrender to You completely. I can’t seem to get out of this financial hole but only You can help me. Help me to be patient and wait on You dear Heavenly Father.

I’m weary Father. I’m in so much debt. This country is made to entrap people in its web. The whole credit system is mammon. I don’t want to be tied to a 30-year mortgage Lord. I don’t want to be tethered to this country. Help me break free from this system of oppression. All this debt is trying to bury me Lord. Help me pay off all my debt oh Father God. I’m praying for a miracle! Lord help my finances. I’m working so hard dear Lord. I’m tired. Help pay off all my debt. It’s a need oh Lord! Your Word says You will provide for all our needs according to Your riches in Glory. All I have are Your promises of prosperity to hold fast onto. My grip is slipping dear Lord.

Fill up my barns oh God. You have promised me abundance. Help me to hold on to Your promises no matter how it looks now. You are a promise keeper. Let my soul keep believing this dear Lord. Dear Father keep me at peace in the storm. I’m expectant for financial blessings oh God.

Help me get a house this year miraculously God. I don’t want to return to my parents house oh God. I long for stability Father. You asked me to let go of that house and I did. Bring a house I can call my own Father. I’m so tired of moving around Lord. So so tired. I long for a home I can call mine. Settle me in one place Father. I am tired of moving constantly. When will I be anchored Father? Help me to have a home dearest Father. I just need somewhere I can lay my head down.

Dear Heavenly Father I pray for physical strength. I feel so weak. Help me to fuel my body oh God. Keep away distracting feelings from me. Give me joy and happiness oh God. Help me to connect with others. Cast away fear and anxiety from me. Help me to persevere in this job dear Heavenly Father. Give me something to do at work when I’m done seeing patients. Help me with this loneliness feeling.

I pray that I will wake up every morning due to will power and that each day doesn’t feel like I’m just dragging on Lord. Restore to me my full of life energy. I prayed for this job so help me to remain steadfast. Help deliver me from self-doubt oh God. Instill in me self-confidence dear God. Help me to trust in my abilities and capabilities dear God. Let me not waver in my self. Empower me to conquer whatever it is I need. Help me to finish this certification dear Lord.

Give me a job dear Father. A W2 if that’s your will oh God. I pray for a job with benefits dear Lord and a 401k match. Dear Lord, help me not to have been here away from family in vain. Help me to find a remote job oh God. I’m tired of driving to that jail. I’m so burnt out dear God. Give me a new career path oh God. Help give me something to do on Fridays dear Lord. Help me to make money on Fridays. Bring patients to me dear Heavenly Father. Thank You for this job Lord.

Lord why is every task so overwhelming to me lately. Lord doing life is overwhelming. Take me out of this depressive mood I’m in dear God. Help me to feel happiness and joy again. Lord I’m so confused about Red, two of us having ADHD, how is that going to work dear God?

Dear Heavenly Father the wait is so hard. I desire so deeply to be a mom. Oh the joy of motherhood I long to feel. Dear Father help ease my soul. I cherish this uninterrupted time with You but my heart yearns for a baby. Waiting is so hard. Hope deferred truly makes the heart sick. Comfort me dear Father. Things look all over the place right now Father. Lord You know my deepest heart desires. When Lord? Help my soul to be patient.

Lord I don’t want to raise my kids in this society. Take us to the motherland Father where they can run around freely, eat fresh fruit and grow up on the beach. This country is so full of evil. My nervous system just can’t relax. It’s always something. There is too much evil in this land.

Father thank You for getting me all my meds. Lord help me to wait on You. Help me to wait on all Your promises. The wait is hard. Trusting You Father can be hard at times. You tell me to walk by faith and not by sight. Help me Lord. Help me to persevere and endure the wait. Help me to rest in Your Hands. Help me to rest in hope. Don’t delay Father. I’m getting so weary. I’m carrying so much. I lay it at your feet dear Lord. Take away my burdens.

I’m not happy in this place. I’m holding on to Proverbs 3:5 Lord. Half the year is gone. I pray the next six months might be wayyyyy better than the previous 6 months. I pray to just take things one day at a time and not worry about the how. It is Your job to take care of the how and my job to trust. Help remind me of this. Guide me Lord. You know best. Help me in this waiting season. You said when I delight in You You give me my heart desires. I’m trusting You oh God. Come through for me!

Father here I am again. Feeling so alone and forgotten.😢 I feel like everyone’s life is moving on and I’m just here. Help me to hang on to my faith that this season won’t be permanent. I pray I can turn around and comfort others who find themselves in my situation. You say You don’t waste pain and i believe you.

I’m sad that I can’t feel love and excitement like I used to before. Help me feel these emotions as easily as before. You are a miracle-working God and I believe You can do it. Help me not to see the world as gray. Restore my “joie de vivre”. Help me to do fun things I enjoyed before. I’m grieving the loss of my old life, how happy and bubbly I was. How innocent I was. Dear Father my heart is hurting. I just feel like I’m in limbo. Help me dear Father to take things one day at a time. Give me the mind of Christ. Help me not to be irritable. Help me to endure this season. Thank You Father.

Dear Father my heart is broken. I am tired. The hopelessness is so painful. Father here I am in my vulnerable state drowning with depression Lord. Father how do i keep pressing on? I’m exhausted. I’m drowning. This pain is unbearable. Take me Lord. I am tired. I’m tired of being in this world. I’m tired of this unbearable loneliness. I’m tired of my job. I’m tired of striving. Deliver me totally from this deep dark place that I’m in. 

Dear Heavenly Father I’m in pain. Depression wants to swallow me. Hopelessness is crouching at me. Lord I need Your comfort in this moment. My heart is so heavy Father. I don’t know where all this is coming from. Father deliver me from this spirit of heaviness that’s upon me. Grieving my old life is so painful. Lord You pulled me out of the world but I’m still reminded of it. I just feel like I’m in limbo.

I want to totally be committed to You but I fall short Lord. Help me to connect to this tribe dear Heavenly Father. Prove to me that You are the God of the impossible and You are my Healer. I don’t want to identify with CPTSD but I’m struggling Father. Is it my meds I’m taking? I hate that I need all these meds to just get out of bed and function and hold a job. Lord I am tired.

Grieving the loss of old friendships is so hard. Mourning the life I had. Which part is the trauma and which part is You dear Lord in this journey that I’m in. The world is so distracting Father. I want to pursue You fully. I’m just in limbo. No longer who I was but not yet who You’ve said I am. Help me Father. Draw me out of this mire I find myself in. Keep me anchored in You dear God.

In Your Presence is peace and tranquility. You are a gentle River flowing into the dry places of my heart. My faith is being tested. Strengthen me Lord. Help me to wait in peace. I have the Prince of Peace in my heart so why should my heart be anxious.

I’m sad because I’m mourning this superficial friendship I was holding onto. Lord You’re pruning people from my life and though it’s painful it’s necessary. That was my flesh reaching out to her when i know in my spirit that she’s not a good friend. Help me Father to let go…

Dear Heavenly Father, thank you Lord for being so near to me. Thank you for all you do for me. I pray that tomorrow I may be light as a butterfly. I pray to get back to that beautiful place in 2023 when you had me skipping happily in the woods. I don’t need ADHD medication. I need to live with how You made me. My medication is making me numb to feeling and I don’t like that. Help me to feel again easily. Help me to carry the feeling of pain or disappointment. Help me to trust that they won’t overwhelm my system. Help me to feel deep joy, love and excitement again. Help heal my body dear Lord. Help me not to do the things that bring me anxiety. Help me to let go of this ADHD medication. I don’t want to take anything Lord.

Dear Father, these past two months have been so incredibly difficult. The emotional pain has been almost unbearable. It’s been so hard waking up from bed and doing life. I honestly don’t even know how I managed to make it to today. The suicidal thoughts were relentless. My goodness, the anguish has been so hard to bear. Thank You Father for lifting me out of the mire and mud and setting me on solid ground. Father may I never go back to that dark place again Lord.

I never want our relationship to become performative. I want intimacy with the Lover of my soul. I’m sorry Lord for when my faith has been weak. Don’t let me become emotionally numb. May my tears testify of You. I don’t want the anointing without intimacy. When I’m drowning and feel hopeless You always come through for me. When I give up on life You’re there to remind me to keep pushing through.

Help me to feel my emotions fully. Help my nervous system to feel safety always so that I can get my vitality back. Restore my love for life oh God! Help me to not dissociate anymore. Help me to be present. Thank You for the excitement I felt today. It’s always a strange feeling but that was my default setting before the abuse. Restore my childlike excitement about things oh Lord. I’m trusting in You for this. Restore my whimsy. You’ve been highlighting this word to me recently.

I had to be miserable to understand those who are miserable. Now i understand. Lord help me grow in the gift of mercy You’ve put on my life. May my heart never be hard. May i never I be ashamed of how You made me. You made me with a sensitive heart, help keep it sensitive. Let my heart rejoice for what makes You rejoice. Let it break for what makes Your Heart break. Empower me to handle this when this happens. Help me to carry this burden and set it at Your Feet dear Lord.

Has my nervous system been scared to feel my emotions fully? Lord let me feel love, joy, excitement freely…I no longer want to build dams in my heart. May Your healing rivers flow uninterrupted. Lord help me to rebuild my confidence. Help me to trust You wholeheartedly. Lord it’s been such a long journey of learning to fully trustYou. You have proven Yourself as trustworthy. Lord help regulate my nervous system. Lord let my heart never become bitter towards this world and towards people. There is no anxiety in Your Presence. Thank You Lord for getting me out of depression. I’m so relieved.

I surrender my mind to You today. Fill it with only godly thoughts. When it wants to wonder, help me to take it captive and make every thought obedient to Christ. Help me to surrender my need to know the future. Help me have peace even in the uncertainty. Help me to trust You with all my heart and not rely on my own understanding.

Thank You for the beautiful weather. It’s in Jesus name I pray. Amen.